My heart hurts
Ever since last night I have a pain in my chest where my heart is. I know it's obviously just a muscle or a pinched nerve, but it hurts and it won't go away.
Four years ago late last night is when I got the call that my little brother had died.
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Hang in there kiddo. Do something nice for yourself today that brings you peace.
Inhaling a 2 lb bag of gummy worms will not bring you peace either. I'm just sayin'.
There's a really good Grey's Anatomy episode about a woman who comes into the hospital with chest pains every year. She doesn't realize it, but it's always on the same day. Turns out that their next door neighbor, with whom she was always secretly in love, died on that day several years before and the stress of the memory is causing her chest pain.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/broken-heart-syndrome/DS01135
There is a reason that love is tied to the heart. I truly think that it feels pain. I have felt it before too. I love you & am so glad to have you as my sister. And so was Wyatt, he followed in your footsteps almost every where he went.
I've been thinking of you, Ginger, hoping things get better.
I don't think I've ever commented, but I've been reading your blog forever now.
An NPR show called Radio Lab aired this weekend. The show isn't normally on my station, and I was only half listening when I heard people relating a story that sounded awfully familiar. I realized suddenly that it was your mom and your brother's friend. I am sure you and your family know the episode, and it may have been taped some time ago, but I thought it was beautiful and touching.
I think it initially aired in the early summer, but people still find it. I'm glad you heard it; it's a neat segment. I have to tell you, though, it still doesn't seem like it's my brother they're talking about. It feels like someone else's story.
If anyone wants to listen to the RadioLab show, it's online here:
http://blogs.wnyc.org/radiolab/2009/07/27/after-life/