Who I am is not good enough

I threw a terrible temper tantrum yesterday that makes me feel so ashamed today. I keep telling myself, "That isn't you, that was an aberration," but the truth is, of course it was me. And I was very, very ugly. I know we all do things we're not proud of and blah blah blah, but I am getting to the point where I just hate the person I am. Every day it seems like I do something new and horrifying.

I know it's so typical to gush your heart out on a blog, but I really don't know what else to do. Maybe if I see it written down, I'll change.