Just basketcasing around

Hi, it's me. I haven't been up to much lately except sort of loosening my hold on an admittedly already tenuous tie with reality, but that's cool. I been talkin to people, I been failin my summer class, I been likin someone I shouldn't and been gettin dissed by him, I definitely been startin to look my age. I put up a mirror in my office to reflect light from the window and occasionally catch glimpses of the bags under my eyes in natural sunlight. Sad.

When I was home last, my mom looked at my face and said, "You're starting to look older now." Did I already tell you guys that? I can't remember. I was kind of sad, though, cos I know it's true. People don't tell me I look younger than my age anymore. And I need someone to check for me, but I think I saw a silvery hair on the top of my head this morning. Maybe it was just more golden brown.

As you guys age, has your hair gotten lighter or darker? I see photos of myself as a young girl and my hair was really dark, now it's just kind of ashy brown. I think it got lighter. Eyes get lighter as people age, too, by the way.

Do you like the color of your eyes? I think everyone should at least love that about themselves, because every color is beautiful. Especially when looking into sunlight, I just love looking at people's eyes. I know mine by heart, green with a dark green ring around the outside and an orange burst in the middle around the pupil. And one has a little black speck. I remember cousin Maggie saying once she knew the eye color exactly of every member of her extended family and all her friends. That's kinda cool.

I went to the doctor on Monday to get some blood work done to see if I'm starting to develop diabetes. I've just had a suspicion lately, and it runs in the family. I'll find out in a few more days. If I am, I really have to lose weight. I should anyway. Watching the blood go out of my arm into those little vials was fascinating. I usually can't watch, but I decided to this time (still can't watch the needle go in, though) and it just poured in there. Bodies are so delicate really.

Oh, I almost forgot, it's August starting today. August is supposed to be my favorite month, so I hope I have fun.